Horrible Luck

I realize that the theme of the blog is typically negative, but so are my outcomes, so it makes sense. I've really busted my balls this past week or so and focused on games more. I've cut down my multi-table action to focus on individual tourneys because I was just playing bad poker. I've been rewarded with horrendous beats on a consistent basis. I'm very proud of my play, but I'm getting to the "come the fuck on" point. Tonight is a great example. I played a $5 rebuy on Bugsy's that had 55 starters. I was dealt tons of playable hands to start and picked my way up the chip lead ladder. By the first break, I was chip leader with just over $80k in chips and only in for the two buy-ins to start and the double add-on at break. My luck was overall a wash. I would hit a draw or a 3 outer and the next big pot I played I would be on the receiving end. 10 spots paid and I made it to the final table on a lucky hit with K5ss vs QQ and ATdd. The board ended Ts 8s 2x 3x Kx to scoop me the big pot and put us in the final table. I had shoved AIPF with the K5 because I had just been crushed a few hands earlier after raising with QJhh and getting a reraise that I had to call for odds but more than halved my stack. Despite flopping the flush draw against the A9o I never improved and he caught running A 9 to boat up. Awesome. The final table was a roller coaster. I had AK and AA back to back a few hands in. I took down AK preflop and AA dropped to KT AIPF to a running gutterball. Nifty. Crippled again I battled with 9 still left to get up to 3rd in chips. My only real flaw came with Q7o in the BB. It folded around to the SB whom I had just suuuuuuuuuuuucked out on with KJdd vs his QQ a few hands earlier. I have him noted as a pretty poor player to begin with and he raised me up. I didn't want to push back because he would call with pretty much anything and had me covered. We took the A74 flop together and I thought I was good. He bet and I made the mistake of not raising. The turn peeled a K, hitting what I figured him for (some sort of Kx). He bet again and I folded after dumping nearly half my stack. I folded another round and finally shoved with QJo. I was called by the second shortest stack (me being the shortest) with his Q8o. The flop brought JTx, and the sickening 9 hit the turn. No river justice T for me and I busted in 6th place for $54. That's only a $34 profit. The other sick part is that the guy that busted me was only in the tourney because his A9 chopped with AK preflop after a gross final board (in order) of AKJJJ. I don't know what the fuck to do anymore, so it's time to take a break. Two nights ago I played a $5 HU wherein I lost every all in (5 total) despite being ahead in all of them. The match lasted two hours and I finally succumbed with AT vs A2. This little scourge has rebooted my FTP experiment as I'm down to something like $.14, which I can't do anything with. So after the first I'm going to try and take at least a week off of poker. I usually can't stay away that long but it's causing me to lose my blessed mind right now.

Bugsy's: $196.69
FTP: $.18
Stars: $33.06